Grace in time of need....

Hebrews 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

I dont like for my real feelings to show through. I like for everything to seem hunky doory...but that is far from the case. I accept the word boldly and what it means to me. Not humble or quietly...but forcefully and desperatly. GOD I NEED YOU! and fall on my face before the throne. God you know me. You know when I fail and when I am so very far from perfect. There are no fasods or assumptions... you know my core. And right now my core is hurting. I need your grace more than I ever have before. I need your help because I cannot do this alone. I know you have been here. I have felt you in everyday in every breath. You are the reason that i breath the only reason that I have. My heart aches for all that I have lost but my soul is longing for my Abba Father. The one person who is right there waiting for me to ask you to hold me. Please daddy hold me. I dont not like feeling this vunerable. Being afraid of what I am letting go of. But I know you are asking this of me. For me to let go of pride and the apperance of all that I have portrayed. Not to edit myself but to be raw and uncut. What I have held on to is not pretty but you find me priceless. I trust in your word and know that your grace is mine for the taking. I need your grace. I need your embrace. Hold me because I am unable to stand. Thank you for your presence. For whispering to me in the breeze and in the storm. I still praise you... as long as I have breath and even when I am no more I will praise you.