2 Timothy 1
1Paul, an apostle of Jesus Christ by the will of God, according to the promise of life which is in Christ Jesus,
2To Timothy, my dearly beloved son: Grace, mercy, and peace, from God the Father and Christ Jesus our Lord.
3I thank God, whom I serve from my forefathers with pure conscience, that without ceasing I have remembrance of thee in my prayers night and day;
4Greatly desiring to see thee, being mindful of thy tears, that I may be filled with joy;
5When I call to remembrance the unfeigned faith that is in thee, which dwelt first in thy grandmother Lois, and thy mother Eunice; and I am persuaded that in thee also.
6Wherefore I put thee in remembrance that thou stir up the gift of God, which is in thee by the putting on of my hands.
7For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
8Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God;
9Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began,
SO much has changed since the last post. I have changed so much since the last post. I have been so far from my God that I have been wondering in limbo. Not really here not really there... no where! This scripture was in Pastors sermon a couple of weeks ago. I have read hundreds of times, verse 7 is a verse I was taught as a toddler. But that is not my focus now, my focus is on verse 5. He called on Timothy to remember the faith of his mother and grandmother. Told him to wake up and see the linage of faith that is in his family. Basically Paul is saying you of all people should know that your faith is what makes you strong. You grew up with thay faith so get back to it. Although there are many changes to my life there is one thing that has never and will never change... GOD! He is the same yesterday, today and forever. DUH! So how come growing up with the faithful women in my life is it so hard to have faith? How come I know that my mother was healed and i still cant look at the sun? Because I am human, because I am a sinful creature, because I have an enemy who is trying to devour me, because I am so far from perfect. But Jesus is God made flesh, and Jesus is with out spot or stain, and Jesus crushed Satan on the cross and Jesus is perfect.... the Perfect Spotless Lamb of GOD! I have felt nothing for so long that its hard now to feel anything at all. But i know who my God is, and I know what he wants for me. How can I have that again? How can I reach out and break this awful cycle that I have started. My soul aches and then nothing. There are no more tears but still so much to cry about. There is no joy but oh so much to be joyful about. I come from faithful women. i come from God-Fearing women. I come from Pray Warrior Women. It is in me and yet I cant seem to find it. He is here but I cant seem to feel him. I am lost with a map in my hands.
I do not fear the night, I fear the day.
Lord find me for I am lost. I can not seem to find my way to light. When I see light I turn and run ashamed of what walking in light will reveal. I am dirty and there is ugliness engulfing me. Please save me for I am unable to save myself.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, August 22, 2008
...the word of the Lord remains forever
1Peter 1:13-14
13 Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance,
1Peter 1:18-19
18 knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot.
1Peter 1:24-25a
24 for “All flesh is like grass
and all its glory like the flower of grass.
The grass withers,and the flower falls,
25 but the word of the Lord remains forever.”
There is a promise that the flesh will not last... nor the things of this flesh... But the word of the Lord remains forever. Thank you Lord that this world is temporary. That this is not the best that we have to look for. That the evil and the ugliness of this world will pass away! But your promise will be forever!
13 Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance,
1Peter 1:18-19
18 knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot.
1Peter 1:24-25a
24 for “All flesh is like grass
and all its glory like the flower of grass.
The grass withers,and the flower falls,
25 but the word of the Lord remains forever.”
There is a promise that the flesh will not last... nor the things of this flesh... But the word of the Lord remains forever. Thank you Lord that this world is temporary. That this is not the best that we have to look for. That the evil and the ugliness of this world will pass away! But your promise will be forever!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Love for our Savior
Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, "It is the Lord!" As soon as Simon Peter heard him say, "It is the Lord," he wrapped his outer garment around him (for he had taken it off) and jumped into the water. The other disciples followed in the boat, towing the net full of fish... John 21:7-8a
One of the passages I was reading this morning is John 21 where Jesus comes to the disciples after the crucifixtion and tells them to cast their nets to the other side of the boat and in turn they catch more fish than they can handle. That has always been the focus of my reading until today. Today what stood out to me was the LOVE Peter had for his lord. When they said it was the Lord he jumped from the boat with no reguard to the catch or the boat. His only care was to be with Jesus. There was a love there that I want to know. To want to commune with my Jesus so badly that NOTHING else matters. Right now so many other things get in my way. My job, my family even spending time with my amazing husband. Although all of that is good and I should show attention to each Jesus should be my waking thought and in my heart as i go to sleep. I want to have a love like Peter. And Jesus loved him back. Later in the Chapter he tells him - do you love me Peter... if you do that feed my sheep." If we truelly love our Lord isnt that what we should be doing... feeding his sheep, caring for his lambs? I find myself to preoccupied with my life to even think about all the people that God wants me to reach. There is TOO much going on in MY life for me to worry with others. IF I am to be a disicple that I must start looking at the lives around me and sharing that love of Christ that we so loosely talk about. Less talking more action. Then the Love I have for my Lord will be the priority of my daily life!
One of the passages I was reading this morning is John 21 where Jesus comes to the disciples after the crucifixtion and tells them to cast their nets to the other side of the boat and in turn they catch more fish than they can handle. That has always been the focus of my reading until today. Today what stood out to me was the LOVE Peter had for his lord. When they said it was the Lord he jumped from the boat with no reguard to the catch or the boat. His only care was to be with Jesus. There was a love there that I want to know. To want to commune with my Jesus so badly that NOTHING else matters. Right now so many other things get in my way. My job, my family even spending time with my amazing husband. Although all of that is good and I should show attention to each Jesus should be my waking thought and in my heart as i go to sleep. I want to have a love like Peter. And Jesus loved him back. Later in the Chapter he tells him - do you love me Peter... if you do that feed my sheep." If we truelly love our Lord isnt that what we should be doing... feeding his sheep, caring for his lambs? I find myself to preoccupied with my life to even think about all the people that God wants me to reach. There is TOO much going on in MY life for me to worry with others. IF I am to be a disicple that I must start looking at the lives around me and sharing that love of Christ that we so loosely talk about. Less talking more action. Then the Love I have for my Lord will be the priority of my daily life!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Grace in time of need....
Hebrews 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
I dont like for my real feelings to show through. I like for everything to seem hunky doory...but that is far from the case. I accept the word boldly and what it means to me. Not humble or quietly...but forcefully and desperatly. GOD I NEED YOU! and fall on my face before the throne. God you know me. You know when I fail and when I am so very far from perfect. There are no fasods or assumptions... you know my core. And right now my core is hurting. I need your grace more than I ever have before. I need your help because I cannot do this alone. I know you have been here. I have felt you in everyday in every breath. You are the reason that i breath the only reason that I have. My heart aches for all that I have lost but my soul is longing for my Abba Father. The one person who is right there waiting for me to ask you to hold me. Please daddy hold me. I dont not like feeling this vunerable. Being afraid of what I am letting go of. But I know you are asking this of me. For me to let go of pride and the apperance of all that I have portrayed. Not to edit myself but to be raw and uncut. What I have held on to is not pretty but you find me priceless. I trust in your word and know that your grace is mine for the taking. I need your grace. I need your embrace. Hold me because I am unable to stand. Thank you for your presence. For whispering to me in the breeze and in the storm. I still praise you... as long as I have breath and even when I am no more I will praise you.
I dont like for my real feelings to show through. I like for everything to seem hunky doory...but that is far from the case. I accept the word boldly and what it means to me. Not humble or quietly...but forcefully and desperatly. GOD I NEED YOU! and fall on my face before the throne. God you know me. You know when I fail and when I am so very far from perfect. There are no fasods or assumptions... you know my core. And right now my core is hurting. I need your grace more than I ever have before. I need your help because I cannot do this alone. I know you have been here. I have felt you in everyday in every breath. You are the reason that i breath the only reason that I have. My heart aches for all that I have lost but my soul is longing for my Abba Father. The one person who is right there waiting for me to ask you to hold me. Please daddy hold me. I dont not like feeling this vunerable. Being afraid of what I am letting go of. But I know you are asking this of me. For me to let go of pride and the apperance of all that I have portrayed. Not to edit myself but to be raw and uncut. What I have held on to is not pretty but you find me priceless. I trust in your word and know that your grace is mine for the taking. I need your grace. I need your embrace. Hold me because I am unable to stand. Thank you for your presence. For whispering to me in the breeze and in the storm. I still praise you... as long as I have breath and even when I am no more I will praise you.
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
No Pain No Gain
Isaiah 65
Isaiah 66
Psalm 62
John 3
Today's scripture:
Is. 65:23-24
23 They shall not labor in vain,
Nor bring forth children for trouble;
For they shall be the descendants of the blessed of the LORD,
And their offspring with them.
24 “ It shall come to pass
That before they call, I will answer;
And while they are still speaking, I will hear.
My Observation:
There are many things that Israel was facing at this time. there were faithful Isarelites as well as those who had turned their backs on God. The faithful had their share of trials and test. God promised that their children would be blessed.
And that he would answer thier prayers before they asked. Therefore he let them know
that they were not going through these troubles for nothing. Although they might not
understand or see it now, their children would be blessed because og their long suffering.
Application:
I have seen this with my Grandmother. it is something that my mother and i discussed many many times. My Grandmother has given all that she is to the work of
the Lord. Many times she sacrificed worldly stability to do what God asked of her.
She had to have been lonely and discouraged at times but she was ever faithful. IF you know me you have heard me say that she and my mother are the strongest women I have ever known... and it is true. Because of her faithfulness our family has been blessed. We are close and there for one another and each of my cousins and I have found a mate that is sent to us by God and our perfect match. God has blessed us because of my Granny's faithfulness in time of trouble. She has had her share of heartache but God as been true to his word and her children rise up and call her blessed.
Prayer:
Dear Father, help me to be as steadfast even when things are not ideal. To not run in the face of trial. To know that you reward those who are faithful to you even when times seem unbearable. I know that your word is true, from beginning to end. You have not turned you face from us but rather are there to boost us along. Help me to live a life that will heap blessings on my family.
Amen
Isaiah 66
Psalm 62
John 3
Today's scripture:
Is. 65:23-24
23 They shall not labor in vain,
Nor bring forth children for trouble;
For they shall be the descendants of the blessed of the LORD,
And their offspring with them.
24 “ It shall come to pass
That before they call, I will answer;
And while they are still speaking, I will hear.
My Observation:
There are many things that Israel was facing at this time. there were faithful Isarelites as well as those who had turned their backs on God. The faithful had their share of trials and test. God promised that their children would be blessed.
And that he would answer thier prayers before they asked. Therefore he let them know
that they were not going through these troubles for nothing. Although they might not
understand or see it now, their children would be blessed because og their long suffering.
Application:
I have seen this with my Grandmother. it is something that my mother and i discussed many many times. My Grandmother has given all that she is to the work of
the Lord. Many times she sacrificed worldly stability to do what God asked of her.
She had to have been lonely and discouraged at times but she was ever faithful. IF you know me you have heard me say that she and my mother are the strongest women I have ever known... and it is true. Because of her faithfulness our family has been blessed. We are close and there for one another and each of my cousins and I have found a mate that is sent to us by God and our perfect match. God has blessed us because of my Granny's faithfulness in time of trouble. She has had her share of heartache but God as been true to his word and her children rise up and call her blessed.
Prayer:
Dear Father, help me to be as steadfast even when things are not ideal. To not run in the face of trial. To know that you reward those who are faithful to you even when times seem unbearable. I know that your word is true, from beginning to end. You have not turned you face from us but rather are there to boost us along. Help me to live a life that will heap blessings on my family.
Amen
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